Friday, December 12, 2014

Sycamores, Then and Now

Etching, made in May, 1963, of a sycamore on a creek West of Gilroy, Ca. 
(The etching was made on the press at Foothill Junior College (in Los Altos, Ca.) where I was a first-year student.)


 
Sycamore at bark on a tree at our home in Mariposa, Ca.
(Photographed after a heavy rain on December 12, 2014)

Back to Front - On the Water

A mashup: Nick, Bear, and me in Dad's rowboat on the Merced Falls Diversion Dam - and - Gabe waterskiing behind my boat on the Sacramento River.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

We'll Never Know...

The subjects of these two poems seem to have little in common, but within each is this feeling about things we will never know; just a feeling...

In Praise of my Sister

by Wislawa Szymborska

My sister does not write poems
and it's unlikely she'll suddenly start writing poems.
She takes after her mother, who did not write poems,
and her father, who also did not write poems.
Under my sister's roof I feel safe:
nothing would move my sister's husband to write poems.
And though it sounds like a poem by Adam MacedoĊ„ski,
none of my relatives is engaged in the writing of poems.

In my sister's desk there are no old poems
nor any new ones in her handbag.
And when my sister invites me to dinner,
I know she has no intention of reading me poems.
She makes superb soups without half trying,
and her coffee does not spill on manuscripts.

In many families no one writes poems,
but when they do, it's seldom just one person.
Sometimes poetry flows in cascades of generations,
which sets up fearsome eddies in family relations.

My sister cultivates a decent spoken prose,
her entire literary output is on vacation postcards
that promise the same thing every year:
that when she returns,
she'll tell us, everything,
everything,
everything.


Tape Message 

by Fred Staal

There was a message
in the cassette tape I bought,
at the yard sale, in that dusty little town,
just a block off the river road.
The music is long forgotten,
but on a card inside the case, neatly printed:
    Keith and Judy-
    Have a great adventure!!
    I look forward to hearing from you,
    Arnaz

OK, at least now
I know your names,
hidden away in that anonymous little town,
then going away on great adventures,
or at least one, anyway.
Writing postcards,
and a couple brief, indifferent letters to Arnaz:
about the long hike to the ruins,
the two days of unimaginable intestinal distress,
and the last two days, balmy and languid;
Ah, symmetry.

And then again:
tedious hours in a stuffy airplane
and the tiresome drive...
back to the little town and
that little old house,
and the relief
of its simple walls,
dark and cool,
bearing tales of excitement,
and memories of other simple walls,
colorful and exotic,
of unfamiliar flora,
of disturbing fauna,
and so much sun...

How can this have happened
and I don't know a thing about it?
Or how much more I should explain!


Note: In Praise of My Sister is translated from the Polish by Magnus J. Krynski and Robert A. Maguire. I found it in "A Book of Luminous Things" - a lovely anthology of poetry edited by Czeslaw Milosz.


Saturday, October 4, 2014

Halloween and Family History


This is a story about family Halloween photos...
 In June of 1984 Edna and I sold our home and embarked on a big trip to find a new one. We traveled in a 1974 Chevy van that had once been John Lee Hooker's band bus. I bought it from his son's girlfriend, who acquired it as a gift after it had been in a wreck while on a tour in Idaho and somehow managed to limp home to Gilroy. I fixed up the van and added a big bed that filled the back of the van (for Nick, Edna, and me). It was built about a foot and a half above the floor so we could store clothes, food, and cooking gear underneath. At window level I added a small bed behind the driver's seat for Gabe and another across the back for Aischa. Thus we traveled for months and months. October's end and Halloween found us in Texas, having fled West from the ravenous mosquitoes of Louisiana's coast. Towards dusk, in a small town whose name I no longer remember, we located a park with picnic tables where we could fix dinner. Edna brought out a pumpkin we had bought along the way and we encouraged the kids to have a go at opening it up and carving the face. When it was done, I got the urge to capture the moment on our Polaroid camera. I opted to pose them as three human heads and one pumpkin head (turned out to be a Halloween tradition we subsequently followed for several years). I always wondered where the inspiration for that shot came from.

Fast forward 30 years. A marriage to Melina and a move to Mariposa brought to the surface an anonymous cardboard box that turned out to be holding old photos my Dad had collected for me. Some were from the days of my earliest memories, that is, the late 1940s. There were photos of my brother Mickey and me with cowboy hats and six-guns, posing behind a tumbleweed, and others of us hanging out in the front yard. Amongst those was this shot. That is me behind the stone wall lining our circular driveway. And that's Main Street in El Cajon behind me, along with the back of the signboards advertising the Bella Rosa Trailer Park and a big open field. My Dad (and Al Johnston) owned the Bella Rosa and he named it in honor of his wife/my mother Rosalie, and he managed it from our home in the front. In those days, we were surrounded by small farms and open land, all the way to those mountains in the background (need I add that Main Street in El Cajon is no longer quite so bucolic).

There is no information on the print, but I'd guess it was Halloween, 1948. And that's me, one human head, with three pumpkin heads, and the likely inspiration for my 1984 Polaroid. Only took 66 years for me to work all this out. Weird, huh?


 Closer...

Oh, I mentioned that Main Street, El Cajon wasn't so bucolic anymore. Here's the view from our front yard now. 




 And here's what our front yard looks like now:
Actually, down a little side road to the right of this center, about a block back, there appears to be the remnant of a small trailer park, essentially just a strip of asphalt, some concrete: pads, and the occasional RV.
 ... and Google has this curious listing:

BELLA ROSA TRAILER PARK 619-442-7709 El Cajon CA ...

www.sbn.com/California/El-Cajon/.../BELLA-ROSA-TRAILER-PARK
Have you done business with BELLA ROSA TRAILER PARK in El Cajon, CA? If so, please provide a brief commentary or review to share your experience with ...

I still haven't worked up the nerve to give that phone number a call...

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Lines

A few months back, Melina and I really got to work on putting deer fence around her garden plots. I handled the simple stuff: setting the posts and helping string the 6 foot chicken wire. We both had a suspicion, however, that deer that were properly motivated (by water and juicy veggies and fruits) could and would jump the wire. So Melina decided to add a "confusion" fence, made up of 6 foot bamboo poles inserted at various angles in the chicken wire that would make the deer wonder about the judiciousness of leaping. But she couldn't help but make these additions a scuptural/artiistic enterprise, and the result is beautiful. It wasn't until I saw them in the afternoon light that I was reminded of an old painting of mine from the 60's that seemed echo the lines formed by the bamboo poles.
So, here's the fence:
  And here's a section of my old painting (it's too big for the scanner):

Monday, August 25, 2014

Pensive Cousins

Helen (Elena) and Edna

The Journey, Beginning and End (with Olav Hauge)

There Will Come a Time

 

There will come a time
when it is time to wander off.
Around me, people
laugh and cry and carry on.
Still, I am not of them;
I cannot be with them.
They don't yet know,
with the certainty that I am coming to know,
that there will come a time
when it is time to wander off.

The time for some is sooner,
the time for others later.
We do not know our time.
Then suddenly, before us,
a new and shining sea,
a fresh breeze,
and a little boat,
bidding us to sail.

FS


It's the Dream

 

It’s the dream we carry in secret
that something miraculous will happen
that it must happen
that time will open
that the heart will open
that doors will open
that the rockface will open
that springs will gush–
that the dream itself will open
that one morning we’ll quietly glide into
some little harbor we didn’t know was there.

Olav Hauge 

Rest: Hafez and Me


Just Sit There

Just sit there right now.
Don't do a thing.
Just rest.

For your separation from God
Is the hardest work in this world.

Let me bring you trays of food
And something
That you would like to drink.

You can use my soft words
As a cushion
For your
Head.

Hafez



Invitation       

You're invited to the feast.
The table's piled high,
the food awaits by day and by night.
What's your pleasure?
If you're tired, let someone else's fingers
feed you grapes.
If you're hungry, be a two-fisted eater.
Its OK! We're all here to serve.
Right now fresh fruit is being peeled;
the dirty dishes swept away.
Look!
Tiny birds chase the crumbs at your feet.

 F. Staal